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- I Tried to Be the Best Student - to Stop Dad's Drinking and Mom's Shouting
- The only thing I want in my life is to be happy, but that hasn't been the case.
- I grew up with an alcoholic father and a neurotic mother. I barely spoke. I felt sad, depressed, and very lonely. When there were parties, they were only excuses to drink. I could never enjoy myself because I feared something bad would happen later.
- My mother would begin shouting. Sometimes my father got so angry that he would begin throwing things around. The fights always ended with one or the other physically hurt.
- I remember one occasion very well. My parents began fighting after they came home from a party. I stood at the door to my room looking at them fight. I had tears in my eyes. They looked at me and stopped.
- My mother, brothers, sisters, and I left home for a week. We always forgave my father, because, after all, we loved him. We believed him when he said he'd not do it again.
- He quit drinking for a year and then began drinking again. Sometimes I wished I were dead. I couldn't stand my father drunk. My mother used to shout about everything and I don't have words to describe how I felt. Time went by and everything stayed the same.
- I tried to be the best student at school to make my father stop drinking and to make my mother stop shouting. But things didn't happen like that. I started misbehaving and acting differently. That way I could make them feel all the pain I had felt for so many years. I didn't know I was also hurting myself.
- It was too much for us to learn that my father had become a drug addict. It caused me a lot of pain. I thought I was going to die this time. Three days after my 13th birthday, I found Alateen. I have been in the group for a year and a half.
- I have changed very much and the group is now my family. My parents also have their own groups and we are a happy family now. We wouldn't know what to do without the help of our groups.
- By Joselen R., Texas - 14 years old
Published November 2006
Alcoholism is a family disease. Those of us who live with, or have have lived with, this disease as children or adults sometimes have problems which the Al-Anon program can help us to resolve. If you have answered yes to some of all of the above questions, Al-Anon may be of help to you. You can contact Al-Anon by checking your local telephone directory, or from the Resources page. Phone numbers and Contact Information for the Austin Area are listed on the Contact Page of this website.
- These articles were reproduced with permission from 'The Forum', the monthly inspirational newsletter of Al-Anon. Al-Anon World Headquarters, Inc. is located in Virginia Beach, VA. See www.Al-Anon.org for more information.